I really want to tell you :

Lately talking with you cause misunderstanding and angry and ended bad. Yesterday we chat about her and you ended with ' i'm tired of trying to communicate in the way you like/prefer but my trying never good enough for you. OK, settled,friend only'

I said crying is like my breathing air since last year and i don't want it anymore. You see it as i don't want it with you. But actually i'm not, i mean it as i want to calm down, i don't want to cry anymore, i want time to think, but i never think to see you as friend when i said i don't want it anymore. But friend is always on your mind many many times. We agree not to mention that unless we both want it to, maybe you had forgot it. So when you said that i said the same, OK, settled, friend only. I have no choice.

Last thing i want you to know is i never create words, i know what you have told me and forgotten but i never create those.

I feel very very sad.

This is what i want to tell you today.